(And yes, I realize it is Saturday). On Fridays a bunch of brave writers gather here to all spend 5 collective minutes writing on a single prompt. The short version is: Write for 5 minutes flat for pure unedited love of the written word. (On your blog or in the comments). - See more here. This week's word.....Ordinary. There is nothing ordinary about my children. They are truly extraordinary. Everything about them still amazes me. I still look at them and think... I made that. From scratch. And I look at Bella sometimes and still have to remind myself that I have a daughter. My boys have a sister.
And yet, I am so much harder on myself. I doubt. I doubt my parenting. I doubt my ability as a nurse. I doubt myself as a wife, daughter, sister, friend. I set the bar too high. I want to photograph. But, I am not as good as every other photographer. My pictures are ordinary. There is nothing special about my pictures. This is my biggest hurdle. I cannot be proud of myself. I can be so proud of my children. But I don't cut myself any slack. And I definitely do not see myself as different. Or extraordinary. I need to trust myself. To give myself the credit I deserve. I look at my children every day, and I am so proud. Proud of them. I need to be proud of myself because I am their parent. And they are the product of my upbringing. STOP.
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AuthorMy name is Kaci. I am a working mom of 3. Wife to Josh. Mom to Jackson, Cameron & Isabella. My life is dinner, homework, baseball, basketball, grocery lists, laundry, middle school, wine, video games, and schedules. I started this blog because I love taking pictures, and I needed a place to document our life. I wanted a place to write it all down, to remember little details so easily forgotten in the mad rush that is the life of a family of 5. Through my photos and words, I endeavor to capture our story. Categories
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