Hard to believe this kid has been a part of my life for 10 years.
It's hard to believe I'm old enough to have a ten-year-old.
I can remember the exact minute I found out I was pregnant (literally I had just finished peeing and was standing up to button my pants and that little stick had two blue lines!). I remember calling Josh minutes later at work at Cavalier Ford and telling him to walk away from his co-workers so we could talk. I remember coming home early one morning after working a night shift at the hospital and crawling into bed with Josh; seconds later his alarm went off and the song Arms Wide Open by Creed started playing- he had set it up to play that song knowing I would be home by then and just getting to bed.
I remember when he was born and they whisked him away to give him some oxygen and I just kept asking "Is my baby okay?". And then that first moment when I got to hold him and I kept touching his face and saying over and over "it just doesn't seem real". He had a broken clavicle and bruised cheek from the forceps.
I remember wondering what he would look like when he grew up. What kind of personality he would have.
Fast forward nine years.
He is tall and lanky. With long skinny arms. Big, green, almond-shaped eyes and pink juicy lips (that someday some girl is going to swoon over). He has perfect unmarked skin, and I imagine the day when he gets his first pimple. Or some peach fuzz above his upper lip. He gets his pasty-white complexion from his momma.
He is 4 feet, 10.5 inches tall and weighs 83.5lbs. He wears size 12 jeans and a size 6 shoe.
He is sensitive and inquisitive. He can drive me insane with his incessant questions. I can look at him wrong and make him cry. (He calls it my "mean eyes").
He is wearing deodorant and Axe body spray. He doesn't like me to see him naked (although I still like to catch a peek at his booty when he gets in the shower - he has the best bubble butt). He gets so embarrassed if I even mention girls.
He loves video games; Minecraft and Call of Duty are his favorites. He loves to play on the computer but hates to read.
He is eager to please and an over achiever, typical qualities of a first-born. I have watched him hold open a door for a woman or a family and my heart swells with pride. He is always thoughtful and appreciative.
I don't ever worry about him making bad decisions; I just worry that he worries too much.
I only hope that he knows what a truly awesome human being he is and how it makes me feel to be his mother - proud doesn't even come close. I know we will always be close. He is the type of kid that will always take care of his family.
"When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?"
My name is Kaci. I am a working mom of 3. Wife to Josh. Mom to Jackson, Cameron & Isabella. My life is dinner, homework, baseball, basketball, grocery lists, laundry, wine, video games, and bath time. I started this blog because I am passionate about photography and journaling, and because I wanted a place to write it all down, to rememeber little details so easily forgotten in the mad rush that is the life of a family of 5. Through my photos and words, I endeavor to capture our story.