In case I ever doubt if I'm doing it right.
This was written by Cameron last night. Just 10 minutes prior to this, we were having a battle of wills. He said he was sorry, we hugged, and we sat down at the table together to work on his turkey project for school.
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Watching girly movies (Tangled). And playing with her hair. Can't wait to introduce her to some of my favorites: Little Mermaid and Annie.
We haven't had movie night in a long time. I honestly can't remember the last movie we watched. We used to do it regularly. Movie night consists of a movie (obviously) while eating snacks together. It's our way of getting in some quality time with the kids, and we try to make it special. I was a little worried that either of the boys would not want to. I mean, they are getting up there in age where watching a movie with their parents might be boring. To my pleasant surprise, not only were they both excited about it but the next night, Cameron asked if we could have movie night again.
We rented The Croods, and if you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. Very cute movie. We laughed out loud, and I even shed a few tears over the ending. Great family movie about the relationship between an overprotective father and his strong-willed child (in this case, it was his daughter, but reminded me somewhat of a father I know and a strong-willed little boy). We made movie night popcorn (I don't know the actual name for this, but I found the recipe on pinterest and it is yummy - recipe here). The boys actually made it themselves this time (a control issue I am dealing with because it is 1) messy and they are 2) slow). And I'm so glad I did because they had a great time, and even fought over who got to stir what and who's turn it was to push the buttons on the microwave. We waited until Bella went to bed. She is not quite ready for movie night yet. We can't even get her to sit through a full episode of Blue's Clues. Plus, she hasn't been feeling well - she has a head cold and green boogers and it is so pitiful. During the movie, I would sneak a peek at the boys. They were laughing and really enjoying the movie. And the sticky popcorn. And my heart felt so full. And I realized how much they enjoy that time with us still. Jackson even told me before the movie started that I wasn't allowed to look at my phone (ouch!). Little did he know that Daddy & I had already made an agreement that phones were off limits during movie night. Between baseball, school, homework, chores, cleaning, and work....I want to make more time for nights like these but it seems impossible. It's truly an effort to fit it into our schedule. And I feel badly about that. But I think that it makes it a little more special when we don't get to do it as often. And I like to think that all the time spent eating dinner, in the car going from place to place, at baseball games, doing homework, etc....all this is family time as well. We (the 5 of us) spend a lot of time together. And there is no better place to be than together. (This would have made for a great "Five Minute Friday" on together.) Cameron's last fall ball game with the Bats. Great team. It was a lot of fun this year. They were undefeated. And Cameron had two double plays at first this game. And made a great diving catch. This kid. Bella will miss feeding the duckies. See ya in the spring!
(written on 10/28/31) I'm feeling a little emotional today. A little weepy. And a whole lot guilty. You know how us women get. It happens (at least) once a month. It's been a rough week, and it's only Wednesday. We carved pumpkins last night, and it went about as good as it could have. We were going to try to carve three pumpkins (one for each kid), but we ended up only carving one because the other two weren't quite ripe. One ended up being just enough. The boys seemed to enjoy themselves and Jackson was actually disappointed that we couldn't do the other two. Despite the fact that I was a total grouch and tried to hurry everyone along. It was already after 8, because of course Cameron & Josh had just gotten home from baseball practice and we had to eat a quick dinner and clean up. There were still showers to be taken and homework to be done. And I just wanted to go to bed early. But we got through it, and the pumpkin is pretty cute. And now this morning, all I can think about is how hard my poor husband works for his family and how I just pitched a fit yesterday and blasted him with all the things around the house that he doesn't do and how overwhelmed I am. Like how he leaves his dirty clothes on the bedroom floor and they never make it to the hamper. How I spend most of my time picking up after everyone, that I expect it from my children but not from an adult. How he never finds the time to clean a bathroom or the bird cage. How I always have to remind him to put the laundry away after I washed/dried/and folded it.
And yet, today, I am reminded of all the things that he does so often, thanklessly. Like how every morning, he gets up and turns on the shower for me so I can lie there a few extra minutes under the warm covers while I wait for the water to heat up. How he gets the boys dressed, feeds them breakfast, makes their snacks, and sends them off to the bus. And yet I yell at him all the time for yelling at them in morning to hurry up. I know how frustrating they can be. And how slow. And how you have to tell them the same thing over and over again for it to sink in. He made a special trip to the store last night because I said we had to have 3 pumpkins to carve. The other night when I didn't feel good, he went by the grocery store for me and made dinner and let me go to bed early. I complain that he is not home 3 out of the 5 nights and I'm left to do it all by myself - dinner, baths, homework, bedtime, cleaning up, etc. But he's coaching our boys in baseball. And that is so important right now. And I just wonder if they will ever understand how much he loves to coach them, how proud he is of all of them, and all the things he does for them. And for me. I know my emotions are a little exaggerated this week, and I know I'm being a little overly sensitive. But sometimes this helps us to see things a little clearer, and we should take advantage of these moments when we're vulnerable. I'll probably give the boys an earful tonight about their daddy - about how they should appreciate him more and be nicer to him. And maybe I can be their example and show them how its done. |
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AuthorMy name is Kaci. I am a working mom of 3. Wife to Josh. Mom to Jackson, Cameron & Isabella. My life is dinner, homework, baseball, basketball, grocery lists, laundry, middle school, wine, video games, and schedules. I started this blog because I love taking pictures, and I needed a place to document our life. I wanted a place to write it all down, to remember little details so easily forgotten in the mad rush that is the life of a family of 5. Through my photos and words, I endeavor to capture our story. Categories
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